Monday, March 23, 2009

better in time

The past 4 weeks have zoomed by incredibly fast. So fast that I can’t remember much of what I’ve done. It’s like living in a blur all this while. Ever since I got back from Singapore, there is no motivation. I feel sleepy most of the time and stone in lectures. But it seems I’m not alone. Everyone’s still in holiday mood though we all know this trimester’s subjects are tougher and the finals have higher percentage. I guess we need something to set us back to study mode...

Everyone seems to be drifting apart, being in different classes and have little chances to meet. I miss certain people I’m so used to seeing since last trimester. On the other hand, I hear less bitching, backstabbing and gossiping which I truly hope is for the best. I think it's through such a change you discover who your true friends really are. True friends don't need chances to meet; they find time to meet. Suppose I’ve also grown out of it. Grown to take a day at a time. Grown to put the past behind, look forward and move on, ignoring the negative things others have to say of me (I do take them into thought from time to time as self-evaluation). It’s just too exhausting to be thinking about all those gossips which will make you feel miserable, slips you into self-pity and then one starts to wonder why everyone has to be that way and can’t be mature enough to stop bitching around or gossiping. I find myself crying less, feeling less emo and feel happy at the end of the day even if it means going home to stone.

I should applaud myself for being more comfortable in my own skin. I’ve been struggling for a long while since I got here. I guess it’s just about being honest to yourself and to everyone and not putting up a front. I still fall back at times but definitely better than before and will get even better (:


not afraid to say cos' you and i know it was always there.

my thoughts {6:53 PM}

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

head full of thoughts; no more

senseless thoughts always lead to nothing.
about time i stopped thinking.


highly overdued list of things to blog on!
- gor
- xmas
- nye
- spore
- val, sasha, phuay's bdaes

my thoughts {1:45 PM}

Saturday, March 07, 2009

this is really weird. i've been eating a lot but yet i've lost weight!!
for one, i'm happy that my double chin's gone but then i can see my own ribs. that's really not good... )): i've yet to figure the reason why. weirdness!


anyhow, i did a lot back in spore and since i got back to melb. will update soon with pictures! (yes fran. haha)

missing everyone back home!

my thoughts {10:44 PM}