Saturday, June 30, 2007
left home
today's gonna be the worst day of my lifei really didn't imagine that he'll listen to him and leave the house, riding his bike on the road
till now we can't find. it's be close to 10 hrs since he left the house
i really pray that he'll come home soon and be safe
i miss him. i'm scared. i'm worried stiff plus i'm sitting at home not being able to do anything. that makes things even worst. omg omg.
thank god. he's home. since 1pm till 3am.
he actually cycled all the way from home to temasek club. roads, car, highway. i don't want to imagine.
i still don't understand why in the world did my dad chase him out of the house for such a small matter. he's still your kid afterall right. wat's so bad till u've to chase him out of your house?
i swear if anything happened to him i'll not forgive him in my entire life. he's gonna be held resposible and he can forget bout calling me his daughter.
because of his stupid action caused so much trouble to everyone. police involved. wth.
please la. he's just 11 yrs old. can't u teach him? or have u even been doing so?
you need to quit thinking bout wat's in for u and wat u feel like doing and just do it. there's consequences involved you know. this world isn't only bout you. when will u realise.
my thoughts {9:27 PM}birthday
my thoughts {2:28 AM}Friday, June 29, 2007
18 weeks more!!
oh my. it's been a while since i've blogged.it's the end of the school reopen week. i'm so relieved it's over. so many things happened. i went to school with ppl staring at me cause i had a fringe now and looked so different ( that's what so many ppl tell me. but i think it's not that different. heh.) many other stuff happened too.
i'm glad i'm back in school cause it gives me more "motivation" to do work. the holiday hw are piling up and it's gonna drive me crazy soon. haha. so much for holiday hw eh.
it's scary how teachers tell u on the first day of school that u've only less than 18 weeks to A levels and 8 wks to Prelims. looking at the rate i'm revising and how much i know i think i really need to mug big time!! i think i'm failing my prelims big time. roar.
studies aside, oh my. fran i really want u to recover fast cause i miss seeing you in school. that poor girl was at the concourse on wed, nearly bursting into tears from the pain she had since last wk. her back and tummy was in so much pain. at first she tot it was stomach flu, then it became stomach cancer (mengs think she has arm cancer too. HAHA), then it's overload of shit in the intestines, then finally a checkup at the hospital saying it's the serious case of gastric. ew. i hate that. u just feel like rolling on the floor and not getting up. aish. must recover k fran :D <33
the seniors also came on wed. it was great to see them again. seeing them makes me happy cause it reminds me of hockey and hockey makes me happy somehow. they came to eat school food and play tennis.
on the first day of school saw my eyecandy and that made me happy somehow too. and i saw him the whole of monday. haha. i mean these things make school just a bit more bearable. if not sch's just so boring!!
i managed to survive the first week of school. and more weeks to come.
mugger mode starts tmr.
i kinda miss school. weird person i am. HAH.
my thoughts {11:05 PM}Thursday, June 21, 2007
girl talk
this is a really fun song by CSJH a korean girl band.i thought the lyrics are really meaningful.
it shows how girls talk and share their problems.
can dl the song but the link will expire 7 days from today.
http://download.yousendit.com/F83D1AB432445473
the name CSJH has a meaning to it. each letter making up the stage name that represents each character of a member. like how C stands for chun moo in korean; tian wu in chinese; the talent of dancing. and that member is Stephanie.
they're also known as TSZX in korean romanisation/chinese pronunciation.
korean girl band that can sing and dance.
junior of Kwon BoA
recently released their first korean album - One More Time, OK?
an album definitely worth to listen. full of meaning and strong vocals.
korea or rather SM never fail to amaze me with producing great singers.
maybe just Zhang Li Yin who has not proved her stage performance well for my liking.
CSJH - Their Talk (Girlfriends)
I got a love,
Listen to my story,
My boyfriend is just too perfect,
The gorgeous glitters in his eyes, and how understandable he is,
He's just too valuable, aren't you jealous?
Tell me; show me, which guy is it?
This is my first time seeing you this happy,
Don't look like you're happy, it's makes me jealous,
The stories that'll take up all night,
Take me higher
Listen to my heart,
Go let's talk about my boy,
In our time, the endless stories,
Along with the sympathized glances,
Together, with the warmest friends
I got a man,
Listen to my story,
I'm so distressed; do I not have any charm?
He won't even give me a glance,
I hate him, hate him, hate him
Tell me; show me, which guy is it?
Who dares to do that to you?
Just act like you aren't interested in him,
I bet he'll change, the stories that take up all night,
Take me higher
Listen to my heart,
Go let's talk about my boy,
In our time, the endless stories,
Along with the sympathized glances,
Together, with the warmest friends
I don't expect or wish for anything, except for you to listen,
The way we live on in our lives, and how I have friends,
Who understand how I feel
Listen to my heart,
Go let's talk about my boy,
In our time, the endless stories,
Along with the sympathized glances,
Together, with the warmest friends
Tell me tell me baby
Listen to my heart
Tell me show me what's your love
Go Let's talk about my boy
tell me tell me baby
The endless stories
tell me show me what's your love
With my friends
tell me tell me baby
my thoughts {10:13 PM}Sunday, June 17, 2007
so many things, so much feelings
i feel so lost. so helpless watching her get hurt by him again and again.why does she want to try so hard when it's clear from the beginning she'll get hurt?
why should she bear all these for so many years and still carry on bearing them?
why can't she just walk out and find a new and much better life?
why can't i do anything to help? why do i just stand there and watch everything go by and not do anything?
he shld just shut the hell up and get the hell out of our lives.
he says his was a bad influence and hated his for all that he did, but wow. he's just the superb identical. doing the exact thing that his did.
so do i have the right to say i hate him too?
will he still torture our lives?
my thoughts {11:42 PM}Sunday, June 10, 2007
make me a mugger too
OMG I NEED TO START STUDYING LIKE MAD!!i know nuts about my school work. not all dunno but most!! AHHH!! die die die.
oh i think i'm allergic to sand. how weird.
sometimes when the more you try to correct it, the worst it gets.
so maybe i shld just leave it as it is and allow it to get better on it's own.
since after trying so hard all the time it just doesn't help.
don't make me the middleman please.
if you don't want to spend time with me then so be it.
i'm totally fine.
my thoughts {6:17 PM}Saturday, June 09, 2007
summer breeze!
yesterday was so much fun with the hockey babes at sentosa. sun, sand, sea and friends. wat more can you ask for? (:van and i was suppose to meet at 830 but then we all came at 9 instead. fran was earlier than us. haha. we tried walking ard to get me a set of bikinis cause yours truly don't own one. but then which shop opens so early? then shing and deb came. we took the monorail and wow it's really pretty in and outside. the view from the monorail was really awesome too. esp with the morning sun.
when we reached we took the tram to siloso and planted ourselves under one hut. fran deb and shing went over to an island to write our wishes for Bev who was the birthday girl (we celebrated it earlier). after the girls finished meng came, almost bumping to bev cause she was 1hr late. wat's new eh? haha. then meng told us bout her embarassing encounter no. 1 : she was on the tram when she took out her cam and started taking picts of the scenery or rather sky. then there was this bunch of guys who started waving and shouting at her. she was listening to her ipod so she cldn't really hear wat they were saying. when she took off her earphones, the tram started moving so she didn't really bother. only a while later did she realise that her shots had the guys inside. so the guys thought she was taking picts of them!! HAHA. and how coincedental that they had to plant themselves at the hut next to ours.
bev shiyan eleen and haikal arrived soon after. we got them to blindfold bev before walking over to Cafe delMar. then when they reached us we told shiyan to make bev come forward abit. but shiyan tot our hand movements meant to push bev and SHOVED BEV!! haha. i tell u ah that shiyan.. as blur as ever. haha. so bev fell and went OMG! before taking off the blindfold. the rest of us shoute surprise and pointed over to the island.
i don't think you can see clearly but it says "Happy Birthday Bevelyn. Love, Ac Hocks'07"
we got bored playing frisbee cause the sand was so ubearable to stand on. we grabbed our stuff and headed to Cafe delMar for tanning! the pool was really nice plus we had the whole thing to ourselves since it was so early in the morning. later while as we chatted and soaked in the pool, a pretty cute staff walked past heading to the toilet. meng said he looked familiar and thinks he might be her schoolmate. then our very own vannie shouted "eh mengqi's friend!" and started waving at him. his colleagues told him and he turned to wave at us. he had this "do-i-know-them" face. we were thinking he might have just waved back thinking that we were weirdos and not actually regconising meng.after a super long time, while a few of us were at the tanning beds drinking outside drinks, that guy came over. he waved at meng. we all thought he finally regconise meng. meng went "oh so you regconize me!" here comes embarassement encounter no. 2: he went "eh no. i was telling you no outside drinks... .... ... but ya! i regconize you.." that moment everyone started laughing. then ment dropped the big gulp she was holding. i think out of uber embarassement. that guy then said "it's ok i'll just pick that up and throw it away for you." after he walked off, we all just laughed harder. seriously meng, it just wasn't your day eh. HAHAHA. like she said "OMG!! i wanna jump down and die la!!" poor girl.
we continued to tan and played a bit of frisbee. ms tan was hilarious when we played with the netball. she kicked it instead saying she kicks better than she throws. AHAHAHA. we left at bout 3plus and headed to food republic where we all gulped drinks down. after which we met the others to walk ard. it was like fashion show in the F21 fitting room cause a few of us went in and tried clothes coming out from the room to ask each other how we looked. the queue outside was really long at that time. heh. i met xiang un and he was like "i'm darker now!" i argued and said no. he insisted. he was already so dark so there wasn't any difference to me. haha.
it was a really great day. i've nice tanlines now but still haven't totally got rid of the ugly shin guard tans. not as visible as before though. still slightly red. i'm feeling sunkissed and happy! super dark now. haha.
vivo from the monorail
one of the cruises. look at the pretty sky (:
the sky as we left sentosa
dont have anymore cause i was too lazy to take my camera out. will kope from meng (:
happy birthday bev!!
hope you had a great time yest.
love ya many many! (: <33
my thoughts {1:28 AM}Monday, June 04, 2007
boy scout
today my bro's off to scouts camp. he's so funny la. since last wk he's been saying that he has to report in school at 430 am so my parents rushed him to school in the wee hours of the morning only to call me up asking to check the actualy timing; 430 pm. HAHA. blur king.so he stayed home and i had to bring him out for lunch. while waiting for my dad to pick us up from the market he ask "will u miss me when i'm gone?" i went "NO! why wld i. it'll be great without anyone bothering me." he was like "serious? you won't miss me?" HAHAHA. such a baby. i'll definitely miss him. he's my brother afterall..though he's such a pest at times. or rather all the time. talking non-stop that my ears feel like they're gonna bleed or fall off with all his talking and not listening to us.. he already started to miss me even before he went off. he hugged my mum like 5 times since yest and hugged me i think 3 times too. hope he'll learn to be more independent during camp.
shrek scout
omg! there's a huge cockroach in my room. it flew in through the window!! it's hiding behind the cupboard that i'll have to sleep with it tonight. omg omg. ew. it flies. how nice.
my thoughts {12:23 AM}Saturday, June 02, 2007
talk.
got a msg from my mum while still sleeping. she said to meet her at 1230 at her office.i tot we were going shopping; the warehouse sale for zara, ck, fcuk, levis, billabong.. (msg me for more details. ends on sun. up to 90% off!! great steal) BUT!! she made me go all the way to bugis just for lunch -_- not that i don't like. just the travelling part. haha.
met xiang un on the bus. and guess where was he going? town. to do wat? eat of course! HAHA.
after lunch mum went back to the office to fax some stuff while i stayed at bugis to shop ard. wanted to get some accessories but diva didn' have nice stuff. or rather the things were a bit pricey for my liking.. though i was pretty tempted to get a cuff bracelet :x
i think i was just dying to spend money. cause i ended up buying tidbits from the korean store below my mum's office. haha. i got beauty stick!! i never thought i'd see it in singapore. old stuff but then worth a try (: it has junsu's pretty face on it. oh man. i tot i was over them. don't think so huh..
we went to peninsular to deliver the jackets after that. i was almost bored to death while mum chatted with aunty may. but interesting to hear a bit of her past experience working in her old old old company. haha. bout how she always worked ot and no fair pay increase, her colleagues not helping out..
walked over to funan to get mum's daily dose of tea and we talked over tea.
we spoke a lot. it's been a while since we've actually talked this much. i think she alone spent like 2 hrs talking non-stop. haha. i guess it's cause we've both been so busy, hockey for me and work for her.
a lot of things were spoken - school, her work, our family..
i can't really rmb details but there's one thing i know and proudly say.
mum's a very strong person
i give her my utmost respect. all this while, she's been suffering and constantly hurt by the ppl around her. including me. but she still moves on like nothing has happened. she still continue to love us and even feel guilty when things happen to us. i'm really glad she has found God as her source of strength and comfort. i can tell that she has changed a lot since last year after accepting Christ. she's more carefree and not so easily angry.
i'm really honoured to have a mum like her. someone who gives ever so willingly. someone who cares with all her heart.
i really really give her all my respect and i thank God for her.
hope i can be a mum like her when i grow up (:
love you mum! (: <33
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