Tuesday, February 27, 2007

AC Hockey Team '07

the most impt day of a hocker's life has arrived. team selections. the girls played a senior vs junior match instead of the normal drills and all. i was pretty sad that i cldn't play cause of my injured ankle during the VJ match the day before. and i was so heng tat i got hit on the other ankle by krystle's ball. we all know how hard she can hit so just imagine...

as i sat there on the bench and watch, i cldn't help but feel that everyone was giving their best and 110%. there was no hesitation about it. i guess it's cause everyone knew that this was their last chance to show dawn wat they've really got. show it or forever hold your peace. we scored 2-1 against the seniors. considering they aren't as fit as us, i think it was a really good match. we did fight to the end. imagine playing for 1 hr without half time. no one complained no one said anything. they just played. we shld keep the fighting spirit up and play like tat for every single match.

as we warmed down and stretched outside the toilet, the tension and anxiety started to hit me. as fran and i walked towards the toilet she asked how i was feeling. i didn't really know how to answer her. i din't know wat she was referring to; my ankles or selections. the emotions we all so jumbled up all i cld say was i'm fine. dawn announced the team in one breath and it took a while to hit me that the team only had 19 names. no longer 28. when she told us to stand up i totally dreaded tat feeling. i wanted everyone to stand together. i felt so sad.

congrats to those who made team. we're now officially known as ACJC Hockey Team 2007. we will be representing school. we will fight hard for wat our seniors lost so narrowly last year. we'll fight harder for those who didn't make team. everyone tell us that we all have potential and we will work hard together as one to work our potential to the fullest and do them proud.

to those who didn't make team, i'm really glad i met each and every one of you. i've enjoyed every trng we had together. if only there were no such thing as rules for hockey, we cld be a team of 28 and play every match together. i know every single one have given their utmost best and have tried very hard. i know given time we all can make team. thank you for being part of the AC hockers' story. the team will work even harder for all that didnt make it. do still join us for trng after season and come support the matches (:

believe it or not, i really will miss all those who aren't ard anymore. pitch will look much bigger and scarier without all of you. trng won't have so much camwhoring and singing and laughter without you girls. but we'll stay as a family and forever will be. love you all lots!!



yay! i saw candy baby today. thurs we'll go out together! cut hair and watch movie! trng too..
thank you all for constantly keeping me level headed before i get worried sick about so many things. you know who you are and i really love you all. without you all i think i'll be chewing on hair now. haha.
stupid ankle hurry up heal!!
i saw my eyecandy bump into a table today! haha. it was so funny. but then i'm not sure if it's the twin or him. i can't make up a diff anymore.

my thoughts {8:59 PM}

Thursday, February 22, 2007

had a bad day. can't think of a song to turn it around.
dunno why but it just plunged right after lunch. i felt like shit during trng. and it didn't help when i realised i forgot to bring my socks. had to run extra 2 rounds cause of tat. plus i owe dawn 2 rds for hitting lud and xue during a drill. rah.
i just feel empty inside sometimes. lost at other times. angry too.
ahhh. i dunno. i have loads of things to do but the list never ends...

my thoughts {11:36 PM}

Monday, February 19, 2007

never had a peaceful day

i've got nothing much to say so i'll just upload pics.




our class yu sheng. joshua was so nice to shred 6 carrots from 8-10pm. thank you joshua!!




me and my fellow vice captain.


the team had yu sheng too (:


our captain (: ain't she cute?

before training at CCAB




cross country at turf city. it was literally running in a desert place. haha.








i love these 2 pics.







presents i got on vday. love you all my friends! ((:




the flowers are all dying :x

why can't life be peaceful just for one day. why can't he understand he's the one tat's causing all the problems? ungrateful and unhelpful. tat's all he know how to be. just shut up and get lost. life wld be so much easier tat way.

my thoughts {10:52 PM}

Saturday, February 17, 2007

FUCK.
my dad cleared the computer and all my files are gone. music pictures vids school work. thank you so much. it doesn't mean that i don't have time to clear the comp means u can clear it. u didn't even give me time to burn the files into cds. i took so long to arrange them for burning and u just clear the comp. how many times in the year do u even use it. so wat if bro needs to use it. the lagging of certain stuff don't even affect him using the comp.
he even took the laptop from my drawer without my permission. u need respect i also need it too.
FUCK THE SHIT.

my thoughts {7:12 PM}

Sunday, February 11, 2007

town has no nice stuff..

eh i like my dressing table chair. it's tall and nice. just right for using my laptop on the dressing table and it makes me feel like i'm surfing in a cafe. haha. ok randomness.

today was captain+vice captain shopping day! char, lud, fran and i went to town. meng didn't come cause she didn't feel too good. tsk tsk. it's ok meng. i still love you (:
the funniest thing was chare meeting us. she took like a whole 3 mins to see us when we were just standing right in front of her. i cldn't stop laughing la!! oh and she has the same top from topshop as me! (i'm sure half of singapore has it too. boo.) then we ate at jack's place. dinner was $25!! but it was worth it. though i didn't really feel like eating. sickies don't really have appetites. chare ate so fast cause she was just eating salmon and 3 of us were eating steaks. there was this lady at a table behind us playing with the lighted candle. we were so 'irritated' (cldn't think of a better word) tat we thought of various ways to blow out her candle. but of course being nice kddos we didn't. haha.
fran chye u're the best. really the champion. she argued with me for a while whether taka was on the same side as heeren or cine. darn i shld have made her place a bet before our senior told her the answer (was it yangy? did i spell right?) chare eats freaking fast. $4 yong tau foo in 20 mins? tat's like er 12+ pieces in 20 mins? actually quite reasonable eh. haha.
i'm really sad cause i didn't get to buy anything today. there wasn't any nice clothes at F21 or topshop. i guess the cny shopping cleared the racks of nice stuff. now i've nothing red to wear except the flowery red dress my mum got me yest. i swear it makes me look 10 years older. ew.

rule of the day! never catch a cab in town after 10pm. u either wait very very long or wait even longer. we called a cab in the end. fran has a nice house. shall visit it one day. haha. off to bed now though i've slept a lot this 2 days. glad i'm recovering. hope i shld be good by wed. vday goodies and cny too! i'm dying to go back for trng. talk about living hockey eh. meng just said tmr's match might be the last before team selection. omg!! i'm so dead. i'm not on te fence tat's for sure but not a guraranteed place in the team. HOW NOW BROWN COW?!!

my thoughts {12:58 AM}

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

tired sad angsty confused lost

i'm having a sore throat. i've no idea why. it was already like that since last night. and i'm starting to sneeze. i think it's cause i've been eating quite a lot of junkies lately. and not getting enough of rest. no good. haha.

yest dawn told the team everyone's status; where u currently stand.
she told me i'm not on the fence but between the fence and making the team. so this means i've to work doubly extra hard these 2 more weeks to guarantee myself a place. a small mistake might end me back on the fence and i don't want that to happen cause after all the trng and hard work, not being able to make the team will just make me wanna kill myself.
she said to work hard on my speed and direction. i am working on them. in fact i'm trying to learn how to hit sweep with out stopping the ball. no time to stop ball in a game. hockey has taken over my life. (:

today's econs test was just horrible. i only managed to do part b. partly i didn't have time and partly i didn't know wat to write. i was basically trying to squeeze juice out of my brain when it's already dry. then math class test was just worst. it was as if i learnt nothing these few weeks. sucks dong when u feel tat way. then more and more work i piling up. i've to hand in 30 articles by fri. thank god madam gave us a madam sophia sales; 50% off the actual number of articles required of us. just imagine. i'll probably cut every article in the papers for her. haha.

wed cross country
thurs trng
physics test on fri, match on fri, swimming on fri, gp essay outline on fri, example book on fri. wow wat a way to end my week. well at least sat's a ex+present capt&vice capt shopping day! whee.

i'm gonna mug tmr after cross and after school on thurs. and during break on fri. i need to do my math tut before tuition. if not i've nothing to ask.

say hello so econs ssp soon. oh man. maybe i shld really sacrifice sat's social life. like i can. i'm tired, sad, angsty, lost and confused. i need sleep. now! growls.

my thoughts {10:39 PM}

Sunday, February 04, 2007

fish&co!

yest the team went out for lunch at fish&co glasshouse! finally i get to eat fish&co!! haha.
i was suppose to meet fran at 1130 but ended up meeting her only at 1240. sorry babe! so we ended up not shopping at all and not getting my vest T_T then mengqi came like 2hr 40mins late. champion eh! haha. meng <3
i shared the seafood platter for 2 and simple pasta with fran and ms tan. there was so much food but we still finished everything. hockers eat a lot eh? haha.
after 2+ hours we left and went our separate ways. fran and ms tan to fang's party. swee and karen to queensway. shiyan meeting her friend. me and meng shopping. i was suppose to meet candice at 6 but it was only like 4 so i hung out with her and sarah and liying for a while. she ended up coming at 7+ after dance and going home. i got 2 tops. 1 from forever21 and other from topshop. OH GUESS WHO I MET AT TOPSHOP?? wan xiang un! haha. at topshop. HAHAHA. k la he claimed he's there following germaine from badminton after his gay friend pang seh him. saw a few other badminton players there too. after candice and i ate kfc and went home. i just realised i started my day with kfc and ended it with kfc too. haha. ohoh! i also bought a flamingo brooch and some wooden stuff. i'm planning to make them into necklaces or bracelets. or even bookmarks. so ambitious but no time.

next week is hockey week
mon: pitch
tues: off
wed: X country
thurs: pitch
fri: friendly match with teachers at NIE
sat: off
sun: match against SRC

it's really gonna be a busy week. there's 3 tests next week and i'm the least prepared for econs. i know nuts bout macro. i need to mug like mad on tues. sighs. but i'm glad my week's busy. it's better than slacking away :)


looking at it makes me hungry again.



meng coming after 2+ hours from arranged meeting time. haha. <3



my lovely hockers.


dear swee geok and karen took forever to finish tat cup of drink. in fact they cldn't in the end. haha.


after playing hockey for a while, u'll start seeing everything hockey. haha. tat cage thingy looks like the cage where we keep the balls.


this pict is really nice. the guy tat helped us take is really good. and 2 pictures look almost the same! pro eh!


the wooden thingys and flamango i bough. arent those wooden thing cute! ex too :x

VALENTINES' DAY IS COMING!
not that it's very impt besides my gfs :)

my thoughts {6:22 PM}

Friday, February 02, 2007

Beyonce - Listen

Listen, to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but cant complete
Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you wont listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroad
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say whats on my mind
You should have known

Now I'm done believing you
You dont know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh Im screaming out and my dream to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or burned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroad
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say whats on my mind
You should have know

Oh now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now i've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, If you won't

Listen, to the song here in my heart
A melody I started
But I will complete

Now i'm done believing you
You dont know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find my own
My ooown

my thoughts {8:53 PM}

AC HOCKS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

yest's match was our best match so far. though we lost to STC 3-1, we walked out of the pitch proud and happy with what we have acheived for the first time after working so hard all these while. the sound of the ball that hit the backboard was so loud and clear. something that i haven't heard before when i played. i think that even when we sit on the bench and not play, we learn much more. cause we can see the whole match much better.

chare amanda mon dior and the other seniors came down to watch us play. it was really heart warming to see how happy they are when we scored. it was as if they played the match as well. AC HOCKERS FOREVER x33 chare brought pineapple tart ice cream from island creamery and boy was it good!! i only ate one scoop. so i want more!! MORE ICE CREAM! it really did taste like pineapple tarts. haha. but i'm sd cause chare said they don't make anymore apple pie. rah. how can they not make anymore of such a nice flavour?

after our match was the boys' match. watching them play alone just scares me. every single one of them can run so fast. i saw naesh take like wat. 4 strides to get from the 25yard line to the 75yard. man i wish we all cld run that fast after the ball. haha. also they are really violent. bev said that hockey is categorised as violent game in america. titus got hit by the stick in his face. it was so bad that it was dripping blood and he had to go to the hospital to stitch it up. leanne was so worried tat she kept saying she want to go over to see him. haha. such a nice gf. silly titus attacked by the blind side, bound to get hit. but then when we play we take note of nothing more than the ball, players and direction. haha. another guy also got hit in the knee by the ball. he had to be helped out of the pitch. someone also got a green card. but i dunno for wat :x

it really felt good to play properly. it felt good cause i knew i gave all i got. sprinted drag push. things which i never did in my first match. a big improvement i must say. BUT i must not be too happy. it's only one match. not all matches. i've to keep up the good pts and work even harder for a spot in the team.

we'll eat live breathe sleep smell touch play hockey for another 3+ weeks. we can do it hockers. fighting!! x33 FISH&CO TMR!! YAY!! :DD

my thoughts {6:03 PM}