Friday, July 21, 2006

wtf is going on sm!!

we all know tat sm will not let anything to him however bad it may sound. i think their just taking a gamble on how long he can hold on before sending him to the ICU and then pray he'll get better. wtf are they thinking la!?

yunho u need to rest. and this is something serious. u might not be able to sing or dance forever if this continues. not like it's your choice but please tell them off. it's your body yunho. don't let anyone do anything to it. forget the fact tat you're a leader for just this time. rest and be in the best condition to lead. i'm sure the rest of the members and fans would want to see u happy because u really are and not just covering up for all the pain u're struggling to keep. please yunho. rest. i'd rather see him smile cause he is healthy.

i really do admire the fact tat he can hold on to everthing so well. with all the pain and everything he still can smile jump dance and sing. i dont think i can do tat if i were him. i cant handle pain and misery all to well. haha. this isn't the first time i'm hearing tat he's sick and act like nothing happened. i mean u cant eat sing dance or even walk. i bet he cant even sleep well. but he still smiles for everyone; everyone whom he loves. it's just so painful to think about it. he is in such a bad state that i dont want to think about wat will happen to him if he continues like tat.

i'm pissed with sm for pushing him over his body's limits. ahjumah go burn sm down please. T____Thope he does get rest and get better soon. or rather take his time in getting better but he MUST GET REST. the fans will pray for you Jung Yunho Oppa. T___T <3

JUNG YUNHO OPPA <3
yunho ah. u're forever so strong. no matter wat u always stay strong and show the camera and fans your best sight. but then u must know how to take good care. i know as a leader you have the responsibility of taking care of the rest. but how can u do so when u're sick yourself. u need to take a break seriously. the managers need to know the seriousness in this. the lack of nutrients and the rupture of your leg muscles are really something very serious. i cannot stress enough. your passion for dancing might be lost if u dont rest; dont let yourself rest. it really pains the fans to read things like tat. and it pains me even more to read that u're struggling through it all in silence and yet u can still smile. pls for the fans' sake. dont smile. rest. tat's all we want u to do. nothing more. and u can do tat. u must.

my thoughts {5:00 PM}

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

dreams are just dreams not to be fulfilled

forget it man. i give up. some things are just not meant to be. sighs.

if she doesn't allow me to go msia u think she'll allow me to go to korea? rubbish.

she's just fos at times. support me my foot. i cant even go try whether i can realise my dream. it's just one freaking audition. if i get in goot. if i dont at least my mind can be at rest. gah. maybe it's just not the right time. not this rd. but if i dont do it soon then i'll become old and sm won't want me anymore T___T tat's as bad as not even given a chance, or worse.

i dunno la. i dont want to think about it anymore. after this week it's focus on promos and no other rubbish. i want to do well for promos. i know i can and i will. period. then i'll get my reward by going korea and end all the shit. sighs. so much to buck up on. so much for slacking in first half and still slacking. i dont want to be retained!! rah!

ahjumah go for the audition la. at least u can go i cant. help me fulfill my dream. but then i dont want u to get raped. haha. so nvm. go korea then u aud there then u tell me la. then i prepare and all XD anyhows. wishing u a safe trip to msia and make sure u scream kouder this rd. heck who's in front staring at you. make them deaf. haha. and i'm sure things will be better this time. :) scream for me too ya. tell junsu i love his bubble butt and he has to marry u no matter wat and he must be my best buddy. then tell yunho i want to marry him and make sure he takes super good care of his health or i'll ban him from dancing and singing till he does. haha. i'll go to his house n tie him onto the bed. hahaha. i kid. like i even know where the boys live. aish.

THANK YOU SO MUCH AHJUMAH!! LOVE YA! :33

my thoughts {11:31 PM}

Friday, July 07, 2006

argh. i'm a delimma now. sighs. i want to go for the msia concert so badly and ahjumah even offered to pay for the concert tics and those really really good standing ones which cost up to 90 sing. PLUS stupid donkey sm is having an audition in msia too. tat means tat i dont have to fly all the way to korea at the end of the year though i want to go there for hols and visit ahjumah while she's there. but i dont dare to ask my mum :x cause i know she wont allow. plus i dunno how to tell her. like wat? mum i want to become a singer so can u gimme a chance to go try out for auditions? she'll be like O_o u singer? hahaha. look at all those singers yadah yadah. sighs. but then if i dont ask i might never know. i mean look at it this way. i was praying like 3 days ago asking the Lord to help me fulfill my dream and ahjumah came along asking me to go korea to audition at the end of the year. conincidental? then we find out that sm's having an audition in msia? another coincidence? wbzd. :x

i'm just too scared to ask. i'm afraid of being rejected and having to sit there for close to an hour hearing her lecture me. on the other hand i'm afraid tat i 'willingly' allow this chance of a lifetime slip past me like tat. i mean if i go. ahjumah might win the contest at kpop kingdom and she'll get to meet dbsk. then i might get to meet them too cause we made a deal. haha. and then if i do get to meet them that's super cool la!! face to face less than 3 meteres away. who wldn't want?! then if i go for the concert, i can also go for auditions. but 15th july is my dad's bdae. not so nice to not celebrate right? aish. so much to worry and it's all those 'not very impt' stuff. rah. i'm sad and confused..

my lovely spazzing 'i-want-to-marry-xxx-partner'. zhen me ban? kidnap me la. i promise u wont go to singapore jail cause i will tell them i willingly allow u to kidnap me. AHAHAHAHA. XD :x

rah. i hate the traditional not so supportive thinking my parents have. like though they say they'll support my dream but they bash it like no tmr. rah rah rah.

my thoughts {1:34 PM}

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

yunho hospitalized due to bronchitis

oh dear. poor yunho. the other time was changmin baby now it's yunho baby. sighs. mind you bold underline and italics those words 'OVERWORKED AND FATIGUE' WTF. so when is it time for them to rest eh!? does sm really want to see them break down and become exhausted?? do they!?

tis is really something serious for a singer. with an inflamed throat, they're really doomed.

i hope yunho will recover soon and during tat time take some rest too XD really do hope to hear the chatty dude soon ^^ all the way yunho!! must recover ya. the fans are praying for you! man i really admire him. hearing from those who went to the tokyo concert, yunho really sang and danced his heart out. though he did look a bit off. but nonetheless he gave his all though sick. sighs. only one word to describe him. passion for singing and dancing. i really must kowotw to him. haha. yunho oppa hwaiting!!


PASSION IS THE ROAD TO SUCCESS

my thoughts {9:47 PM}