Monday, April 18, 2005

i'm tired. i'll try to blog wat happened here tmr. or rather later today. today's not a very pleasant day. only pleasant in the morning. freak it!

my thoughts {12:00 AM}

Saturday, April 16, 2005

it's saddening to hear that DBSK is under so much stress. faceing the challenges of the jap market. well i'm saying they are doin a great job!

KOREAN FANS! they oughta be shot! make so much n keep screaming during concerts. don't they understand that by screaming they are affecting those who are really there to listen to their fave singers sing live. they cant unleash their 'real' voice cause they cant hear the music or cant catch the right key. don't they understand tat by chasing n following the singer around in intrusion into their privacy? don't they understand by doing that the singers fear for their safety n might even be caused to bear responsibility of deaths or hurt fans?

THEY OUGHT TO BE SHOT! immature they are. so freaking irritating. they complain and scold their ''fave'' artists. BoA they complained n commented tat she bowed 170degrees to the jap fans. n said it wasn't right. like hell wat's wrong? she also bowed low to u guys. it's just tat u guys bow here bow there so u don't really take her bow as sincerity. u take it as just normal crap. wat's the heck! u guys alway complain n comment like it's no ones business. BIG MOUTHS!!

DBSK needs a break. under all these stress n competition. aw man. they rawk. they cover up so well.

yunho- bested hyung u are. always so up to the challenge n yet still so cranky. haha. don't overwork n forget to have your meals. gastric pains can be real painful.

changminnie-don't worry minne. u're only 17. u have years ahead to improve on. believe in urself. u're already considered great! 17 famous n yet 1st in the whole school. how do u do tat dude?

micky-whiner! haha. poor guy. family half around the world. only sunghoon hyung to look after you.

joongie & yunho-u guys are the bestet hyung DB can ever have. independent n smart. sacrificing ur needs just to set good examples. rawk on!

junsu-u sexy hottie! ur voice is already close to ultrasound!!! take things slow. u'll find ur type of music soon. u can do it.

DBSK RAWK ON. THE FANS HAVE FAITH IN U GUYS. we love u!

my thoughts {10:23 PM}

cont..
please dont talk about the boys with so little thought...
of course the fans may not understand...

the boys' personal problems...their personal life...
the time yunho's stomach hurt so much he was gripping in pain...

even i didnt know it...because he didnt tell anyone...i found out when yunho's father told me....although i did scold yunho that time...

they probably dont know how much changminnie worries about music...that the truth is...he wont go out and will stay inside listening to music worrying about his musical abilities...

because he has little family in korea yoochun tends to go out a lot...and calls me whenever he's having a hard time, and whines towards me like a real little brother...

the sole reason being that they cant scold the younger ones if they dont set the right example by staying in when they too want to go out, jaejoong and yunho put aside their wants...

lost in the search for his musical colors...junsu...

of course i'm not saying what they do is always right...
in my eyes...they are still my siblings that have a lot to learn and fix...
i'm not saying to become a fan that points out all their bad qualities...
but to be able to mend it from a distance...

it must have been a few months ago...a few fans recognized me in the parking garage...i looked over to see what they were doing...
and they were erasing the hudnreds of graffitti on the walls by other fans...
i asked why they were doing that and they replied... "we always clean the mess other fans do without much thought."i remember smiling and telling them good luck and walking away.i wish others would learn from them...
doesn't everyone know that if you love someone you wish for their happiness?

before you try to make your physical self be known...let your heart be known first"

my thoughts {10:22 PM}

post by DBSK's songwriter kim sung hoon on his blog.
"these days i see the kids barely once a month...
from what i've noticed, the kids' vicinity is hectic...

i wonder if the fans react the way they do knowing how hard the boys have it in japan...
that it's quite strenuous trying to live out not only the social aspect of life, but business life as well...

i think that its wrong to make someone you like to suffer.

it is extermely hard to get into a car and go somewhere...

taxi's chase after the van...we have to stop midway and tell them to stop following us which makes the boys feel bad...

for example, how is someone that truely likes the boys supposed to act...

what are the fans in japan like...

when boa sings how do the japanese fans react...do you think they are as powerful as the korean fans..?...no they arent...they couldn't be quieter during a song...they are listening. in korea whats it like when a singer you like is showing their music...all they do is scream...whenever that singer comes on stage...

of course every country's culture is different, but due to the loud screaming...
the boys can't hear their own voices and moniter the song...
so they arent able to find the right key and arent able to let their true voices come out during shows...

and because of that the anti's stomp on them like no tomorrow...

for one month they have been practicing music and japanese in japan
even though they are in japan they cant hang out
and now that they have come to korea for one to two days...i'm sure they want to meet their friends...

and that there are places they want to go, things they want to do...

yesterday yoochun and i, just the two of us, went to go watch the filming of ootchasa...

of course due to the help of taekkie hyung we got good seat...

i tend to get stressed a lot over work too...but was able to laugh freely for the first time in a very long while...

yesterday yoochunnie said to me..."how long has it been since i've laughed this freely?"
the boys may look like they are comfortable...
people who haven't succeeded say that the boys havent experienced enough hardships...everyone has worries

they have worries....even rich people have worries...it's law that everyone has worries of their own...

my thoughts {10:21 PM}

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

my blog's dead as u can tell. it's close to a mth since i've blogged. once in a while i pop by to c whether there's anything new going on here but guess wat? i c nothing of course! hah! how silly of me. i'm not a very diary person so ya. at the most, i pour it out to my frens or jus keep it sealed right to the bottom of my heart. it's like yelling in a bottle then cappin it then tie a weight to it n throw it into the sea n hope it'll nv surface again. followin? if not it's ok. i dunno wat i'm sayin either. life's been disasterous. nothing's going right. exams are so near day by day. but i'm not even up to start studying yet. everytime i think about it i'll cry. but then i'll be back to my old self in less than a min. well i guess i c no pt in studying. everything would come back to shit again. no matter how much effort i put. 200%? shit still flunk back at me.

my thoughts {6:46 PM}