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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

NEW ELEMENT IN THE PERIODIC
TABLE
Element : WOMEN
Symbol : WO+
Atomic mass : Accepted as 53.6 Kg; isotopes
may vary from 40-200 kg.

Occurrence : Copious quantities in all urban
areas.

PHYSICAL PROPERTIES
1. Boils at room temperature
2. Freezes without any known reason.
3. Melts if given special treatment.
4. Bitter, if incorrectly used.
5. Sweet as Honey if given a proper
treatment.


CHEMICAL PROPERTIES

1. Have great affinity for Gold, Silver and a
range of precious stones and absorbs great
quantities of expensive substances.
2. May explode spontaneously without prior
warning and for unknown cause
3. Insoluble in liquids, but activity greatly
increases by that.
4. Most powerful money reducing agent
known to man.

TESTS
1. Pure specimen turns rosy pink when
happy.
2. Turns green when placed behind a better
specimen.

POTENTIAL HAZARD
illegal to possess more than one, although
several can be maintained at different
locations as long as specimens do not come
in direct contact with each other.

!! WARNING !!

PROLONGED EXPOSURE TO THIS
ELEMENT CAN CAUSE SEVERE FINANCIAL
HEMORRHAGING AND MENTAL DISTRESS.
BE CAUTIOUS

my thoughts {5:59 PM}

FOR GIRLS
Find a guy who calls you beautiful
instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on
him,
who will stay awake just to watch you
sleep.


Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,
who wants to show you off to the world
when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.


Wait for the one who is constantly
reminding you of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.


Wait for the one who turns to his friends
and says, "...that's her."


GUYS...
Find a girl who calls you baby faced
instead of hot or sexy
who can't stand it when you hang up on
her and calls right back,
who would sit there for hours looking into
your eyes.


who doesn't care what you look like, but
what's inside counts the most,
Who looks at you with the twinkle in her
eyes and
kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips,
Wants to be with you in public, even if
you wear those old grass stained and ripped pants
with the bleached jersey like always,


Wait for the girl who is a constant
reminder of your happiness and joy,
who makes you smile just by knowing she loves you back.
Wait for the girl who you give piggy back
rides to in public and she still is in view of her
friends,
while she gets off and you hear her
go: "you're the one for me, for always"


just wait for THE ONE. no hurries. he'll be waiting for you..somehow..

my thoughts {5:58 PM}

Sunday, March 20, 2005

A letter from Jesus...


Dearly Beloved Friend


How are you? I just had to send you this letter to tell you how much I love you and care for you.


I saw you yesterday as you were walking with your friends. I waited all day, hoping you would walk and talk with me also. As evening drew near, I gave you a sunset to close your day, and a cool breeze to rest you. Then I waited, but you never come. And yes, it hurt me, but I still love you because I am your friend.


I saw you fall asleep last night, and I longed to touch your brow, so I spilled moonlight upon your pillow and your face... Again, I waited, wanting to rush down so we could talk. I have so many gifts for you.


You awakened late this morning and rushed off for the day. My tears were in the rain. Today you looked so sad, so alone. It makes my heart ache because I understand. My friends let me down and hurt me many times, but I love you. I try to tell you in the quiet green grass. I whisper it in the leaves and trees, and breathe it in the colour of the flowers. I shout it to you in the mountain streams, and give the birds love songs to sing. I clothe you with warm sunshine and perfume the air. My love for you is deeper than the oceans and bigger than the biggest want or need you could ever have.


We will spend eternity in heaven. I know how hard it is on earth. I really know, because I was there, and I want to help you. My Father wants to help you, too. He's that way, you know.


Just call me, ask me, talk to me. It is your decision... I have chosen you, and because of this I will wait... Because I love you.


Your Friend
Jesus

my thoughts {3:17 PM}

the singapore youth orchestra is super duper alley ooper cool! i thought it was a total waste of time but then it turned out to be a very interestin thing. i mean how often do u pay $5 for a classical tic n still get to listen to a nice performance. summore by pple about ur age? stef brought her math txtbk n zhou ji to do cuz she thought it'll b really boring. ended up she din. haha. they did a good job. wonderful performance. andris was so pretty! haha. long time since i've seen her. last time i saw her was as a prefect in tie. haha. now in a blue tube dress n heavy makeup! haha. but sad part is tat she plays a cello so have to open her legs to support the cello to play. i felt so uncomfortable for her. she looked pretty uncomfortable too. unlike the violin soloist, Chen Zhangyi, seemed really relaxed. cherlynn n gang was so chatty. talk talk talk throughout the whole thing. so embarassing. other than tat i still wanna say the performance was really amazing. it shows tat spore has potential young musicians. it's oni how we nurture them. no i'm pretty jealous tat i din get the chance to even learn an instrument. haiz.

kor said to me tat nxt time whn i hv bf shld go to merlion park to take a walk. or get him to buy me a drink at fullerton. but if i eva have one. i highly doubt i'll go to merlion park. it's so quiet n eerie. i'll definitely wun go there. so guys if u wan tips on how to impress ur gal, go look for my kor..haha. he's no is 9******6. get his advice. i'm sure it'll help u tremendously! but first fill in the asterix. it ain't diff. u oni got 10 nos to chose from. probability will oni be 3628800 tat the 10 nos will repeat themselves. if u manage to do it, congrats. if not then too bad. go figure a way out urself. ah haha. oh n did i mention he's super pro at these kinda stuff?

sch starts in another 1 day. or rather tmr. sobs. how i wish sch never existed n life can stop at tis moment. so i dun hv to face the pressure of Os. oh well. it's impossible n i noe it. so i've jus got to face it wit a brave front. i'll survive i noe i will. even if i don't. I WOULD MAKE SURE I WILL!!!

OH YES! thanks to all who gave me so many hugs! i've reached 147 hugs alrdy! *hugs n kisses to all!*

my thoughts {1:24 AM}

Friday, March 18, 2005

AHHHHHHH!!!!! zach's super cute man. chubby n playful. he kept screamin n laughin when we were watchin the movie What A Girl Wants. it's a nice movie. has humourous n sad parts. n the guy acting as Ian in the movie is cute too! he has this really nice accent. no those fakey fakey ones. haha. oh yes back to zach. as i was sayin, he was lying on the cushion on my lap. kept coming to me to lie on my lap. so cuuuuute! then he had to go for shower. after he came back he smelt so fruity n fresh. he kept askin me where's his mummy n wants her. so poor thing. mummy wasnt ard. she's overseas. cant stand these kinda mums. dun care bout kids career minded. hope i dun become like tat too. but then i guess sometimes it's not really up to them to decide right? zach looked so tired n was comfortably lying on me while i was pretty squashed up or rather in an awkward position between him n the sofa. haha. then he disappeared into the kitchen. the maid asked him where's his gf n he said "huh?". then she asked him whether i was one of his gf then he said "ya". so cute right. every gal tat treats him nice is his gf. haha. farnie guy. must tease him about it whn he's older n c how he'll respond. haha. in case u still dunno who i'm talkin about, let me tell u. i'm not in love. haha. zach's oni 3 or is he older? n is shanin's nephew. so dun get the wrong idea! hehe

besides this. the rest of the day was pretty boring. but i got to wake up late. i woke up at 12. then started to do chinese. managed to finish it. then got down to copying geog notes. n guess wat? i jus realised i have beta n much more impt stuff than geog notes to recopy. i still got the chinese bk to read, the cheng yu to read, chem sulphur ppt to learn, maths past yr paper to do, study for ting xie, n study for physics test. come to think about it, i din not acheive much during tis break. i havent. i spent most of my time slping. although i tell myself i have to wake up early to study i nv did. i think i did more stuff during school days than hols. well. i'd beta buck up. this yr aint a yr to play. no more time to play. no more chance to day dream. i have to meet my goals n targets set. it aint a joke anymore. i cant play my yr away n expect to get away wit it again. life is movin faster than wat i think n than the usual. I CANT PLAY ANYMORE!!! i'm startin to panic...i dun think tis is farnie any longer. it's not. truly.

my thoughts {11:19 PM}

Thursday, March 17, 2005

i cant b bothered to update today. but then i went to holland v to study wit candice. was 1h 10mins late. slow poke lars. haha. there was this bunch of guys sittin at the table beside us while candice was doin her wrk n i goin to start on wrk. haha. then i heard the guy in blue shirt sayin 'ya O lvl period now all start to study so hard.' haha. i tot it was pretty observant n smart of him.

candy complained bk noisy so we decided to go to delifrance. as we left they guys said bye. so friendly rite. so singaporean not all tat self-centred ok! anyway as i left bk i saw someone's back which looked really really like kenneth at the atm. so i kept staring. it turned out to be him alright. his fren caught me starin so he looked n ken turned too. crap! i quickly walked off n told candy to walk faster. i really dun wanna talk to him. i dunno y. i feel wierd talkin to him. not like those infatuation kinda feelin. but i jus simply dun like it. ask my brain y. found a seat n started wrk. not long i saw ken again. candy being K.P.O called ken n said tat i was shy to talk to him. NO WAY MAN! Y SHLD I B SHY? as rong said "wat's wit me. usaually rong's good at tis kinda stuff. but y did i look on the floor whn marcus came?" i jus dun wanna talk to him! anyway..so ken comes over n asks wat were doin at holland v. i think i'm slightly slow cuz i jus realised he's in band.hah. mayb i forgot. he was there for band camp lunch break. so good. our sch dun even allow us to use hp durin camp. hmpf.

wells..good thing they left not long aft. or else candy will start teasin me frm head to toe. haha. btw he's guy fren looked pretty blur n cute. acsi guys. nah! oh yes n we went to the food court to hv brunch n as we came back we met the guys frm bk sittin outside delifrance. was wonderin whether they were gonna eat again or wat. turned out tat they were doin some kinda survey. poor thing man. kept being turned away. so sad for them. ya.

oh! on the way home i met my old neighbour's mum. who was also my sec1 orientation leader. miss her. esp her bro singing so loudly everyday opposit my room window. hilarious i tell u. my dad used to laugh at it. mite pop by at her house tmr b4 goin for cell at shanin's. i'll jus give planet shakers a miss...

my thoughts {11:23 PM}

It's a wicked cycle of events -- the sight of zits stresses you out, and then your stress brings on more zits! The best way to stop the insanity is to learn how to fight acne and prevent future breakouts.
Here's a list to get you started:
1. The next time you load up on zit-battling arsenal, check the labels. An antiacne product containing salicylic acid will help get the job done.
2. We know class lectures can drag on, but try to resist the urge to rest your face in your hands. Constant facial handling may cause the bacteria living on your skin (propionibacterium acnes) to get shoved into your oil-producing pores. That mixture can cause a breakout.
3. Comforting news: Contrary to popular belief, greasy foods and/or chocolate treats do not cause acne.
4. Avoid popping or picking your zits. Doing this can cause the bacteria in that pimple to be forced deeper into the skin or even spread to the surrounding areas. It can also leave behind permanent scars.
5. Excessive skin scrubbing is not the way to treat pimples. Acne is not caused by dirt. Overdoing it will only strip the skin of oil and cause dryness -- which will trigger a response in the skin to produce more oils. Washing twice a day with warm water and a mild cleanser is all you need to keep facial oil buildup at bay.
6. Be sure to wash off any makeup you're wearing before hitting the gym for an intense workout. The combination of sweat and makeup can clog up your pores -- a perfect breeding ground for zits.
7. Speaking of working out, don't forget to hit the showers right afterward. Exercise stimulates oil production -- which can join forces with perspiration and heat to bring on a zit reaction.
8. No wonder they called her Sleeping Beauty! A healthy amount of sleep (about seven to eight hours a night) helps your skin. Sleep builds your immune system -- a force you need to battle against pesky skin infections and lesions.
9. One of the most-reported causes of acne is stress. Tension triggers hormones, which in turn trigger more oil production in your skin. Monitor your emotions regularly and take time out to chill if you feel anxiety building.
10. Fighting acne is a constant battle. So be sure to keep up with the skincare regimen that works for you -- even during those times when your complexion is clear.

my thoughts {12:20 AM}

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul


I know that you are something special
To you, I'd be always faithful
I want to be
What you always needed
Then I'll hope you see the heart in me


I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul


Your beautiful soul, yeah


You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind if you give me the chance
I'll never make you cry c'mon let's try


I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul


Am I crazy for wanting you
Maybe do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide


I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul (x2)


Beautiful soul, yeah
Oh, yeah
Your beautiful soul, yeah

my thoughts {3:14 PM}

thanks candy for helping me out with my bro's bdae party. really appreciated it cause without ur help i think the fire wouldn't be able to last for the entire bbq. luv ya lots!

i just realised...i've grown up. i've really grown up. i worry about my studies without anyone tellin me to. i never use to be like tat. i use to have tat heck care attitude about it only until exams are 1 wk or mayb a few days b4. i also talk to adults n dicuss things with them instead of sittin n stoning at a corner. mayb all this is bcuz of how i live. i'm forced to grow up in my family. i'm the oldest n my parents are always busy. my father cant b bothered about us n care less. all he does when he gets home is slp eat tv shower tv slp. he never bothers to check on our work n much less our life in sch. all these is not his responsiblity. it's my mum's. to him nothing else is more important than slping. i thank God for such a caring n lovin mother. always so caring amidst all the naggin n scolding tat is so irritating at times. but tat's all bcuz she loves us. when she's not ard i've to look aft my bro. b4 we had a maid. i used to cook clean n juggle my tests n exams altogether. it was so stressful. i rmb once i answered my dad bcuz he was to freakin irritatin n unreasonable to my bro. ended up he slapped me. n boy u shld c how far my specs flew. i'd never forget tat incident. i almost tot of leaving the house. but i wun do it again or threaten to do it. cuz i noe i'll hurt my mum the most then my bro. he needs me. he needs my proper guidance. then n again i cant say tat my dad is tat lousy. though he hurt the whole family he still provides for the family n tries to change. i think. still can rmb how he carried me all the way to the hospital whn i had a high fever in the middle of the night at a farm stay at aust. there was no transport at tat time. n how he carried me to slp whn i had a bad asthma n cant slp lying down. all these tat he has done for me will not be able to cover up all tat he hurt us for. will it?

my thoughts {3:01 PM}

Monday, March 14, 2005

OUCH my back hurts. OUCH my right shoulder hurts too. i think i'm gettin old. reallie old. think i strained the muscle there badly. oh well. today rong gel candy went to NEXT to get their hair cut cus they had a 40% voucher from inkwell. whn we first walked into NEXT we din like it. they seemed pretty unfriendly to us. but then aft lunch we returned n they were not as bad as we thought! haha. they gave gel candy n rong such good head massage tat me n cyn were so jealous n wanted to hv a haircut too. jus in to get the head massage. haha. then they had their haircut. darren cut rong's hair. we din noe his name at first so we called him Mr Silas al his shirt said tat. haha. he did a pretty good job on rong. jus tat she din lyk it as it was short. haha. sylvester i think is his name.. did a good massage for rong n another one for candy. awww. i wan one too! now! haha. nah. mayb nxt mth whn i've not tat busy n hv seeked request frm mum. she'll kill me if i cut my hair. jus rebonded it for over 100 in dec in china. dang it. now my hair's real straight. hmpf. the rest of todya wasnt much. physics then maths tution. cus tmr bro's bdae thn cant go so beta go today..k i wanna go slp. or else tmr cant wake up to prepare for party n do hw. need to finish them. N I'M GOING TO CUT MY HAIR AT NEXT NO MATTER WAT! I MITE CONSIDER GOIN THERE TO HV MY HAIR DONE FOR FOUNDER'S DAY..we'll c we'll c..hahahaa. n yes. i jus forgot wat i wanted to say.. hmm...i really cant. nvm. heh. o i rmb!!! haha. i'm gonna change my blog soon. i've found a really cool one. it says buzz off. but thn n again i dun mean it. i jus find it cute! or mayb another outlook. u'll c. u'll c..

my thoughts {11:31 PM}

Sunday, March 13, 2005

I call, You hear me
I've lost it all
And it's more than I can bear
I feel so empty
You're strong, I'm weary
I'm holding on
But I feel like giving in
But still You're with me

And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
I know I'm broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You're always with me

And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
He will carry me
And even though I feel so lonely
Like I have never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said You'd see me through the storm

And even though I'm walking
Through the valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me
He will carry me
He will carry me

my thoughts {2:50 PM}

yest's class party was a blast. everyone enjoyed themselves. we tried pushin deb ruth n millie into the pool but wasn't successful. cuz we were afraid tat they wun hv xtra clothes to change out. not very nice lar. thn ruth ran n hide. deb said she was cryin n thn disappeared. se me beatrice, adele, debbie tried finding thm. boy were we freaked out. thn stupid ruth msged us some stupid msgs. one which says:" don't worry about us. change ur search party back into a class party. deb n i are doing exothermic rxns. we are contributing heat to the surroundings. global warming will speed up!" so rubbish right. always like tat. full on nonsense but farnie ones. haha. it's fun being in their class. later ard 10 we walked from peiling's house to the clarke quay. peiling tried showing us a les pub. but thn we din c much. so we decided to sit at coffee bean to wait for our parents. all thanks to yi cai's parents who went out of their way to send me home wafter sending her cousin home. thanks again! the bbq was hilarious. me vicki yi cai was squatting on the top of the pit for almost the whole bbq. haha. cuz the ones at the bottom cldn't reach the further part of the pit to place charcoal. it was quite a stupid scene. check out the picts n u'll understand wat i'm sayin. debbie told us her ghostly encounter at obs. pretty freaky k. ew. k i gtg get ready to go watch the little prince performance. oh n i case u'er wondering y my fonts are all black now, heh. i must say i'm to lazy to change the font colours. so ya. it still looks good like tat! hahahahaha. n oh yes. the previous post is not tat i'm in love!! it's just tat i've seen a lot of pple ard me havin bf n i start havin these qs. so it means nothing! it's just random qs!

my thoughts {2:26 PM}

Saturday, March 12, 2005

when u meeet someone tat u makes u stutter n ur heart flutter. is it love? or is it infatuation? how do u tell? if it's love then wat should u do? if u meet someone u like should u jus step up to him/her (him in my case as an opposite gender)n tell him tat u like him n whether u 2 can get together? or should u just admire tat person in a corner n keep wishin u 2 can b together n c tat person wit another gal? or hang ard tat person more often? wat age is the right age to hv a bgr? if u told him tat u like him n he rejects u straight in the face, wat should u do n would do? laugh it off? weep ur heart out? think tat life is not worth living anymore? try again? keep trying? is havin a bf/gf tat impt? is it to show tat u're wanted? or is he merely something for u to show off to ur frens. does it mean tat ur fren has a bf means u need to hv one? wat time is right for a bgr. wat kind of traits do u find in a guy/gal. tat she's pretty? tall? flawless skin? outgoing?...he's dark? tall? handsome? sporty? smart? wat??? should u eva let ur parents noe if u're havin a bgr? how wld they react? wat shld u tell them? how are u going to face them. is havin a bf bcuz u need someone to confide in? someone to give u support bcuz it seems tat ur parents are foreva against u? or jus peer pressure? bgr is common now n tis is a modern wrld so y is it tat parents are against it?

i have no idea y i decided to blog tis. it jus came into my mind. any of u hv comments jus leave it on the tagboard. u're welcome to share ur views..

my thoughts {1:29 AM}

Friday, March 11, 2005

I LOST MY WATER BOTTLE!! I LEFT IT ON THE BUS! MY ADIDAS WATER BOTTLE FROM BEL IS GONE!! GONE I TELL U!! SOBS!!! it was my favourite water bottle. stylo n neat. summore it was a christmas present. argh. i hate myself. i'm always tat careless. argh! i hate myself...hmm..i think BoA is a really successful person. she can dance sing n have a very good character. not putting airs. not to mention pretty too! haha. always smiling. i'm so envious of her. multi-talented. can speak jap korean, eng n now learnt chinese. supre man she. how i wish i can be her. she's always look perfect in almost every outfit n any hairstyle. she rawks! okie i gtg do hw b4 hols start or i cant start studying for chi..

my thoughts {6:28 PM}

Thursday, March 10, 2005

something's wrong wit my com. or rather the freakin web page tat keeps appearing. anyway i blogged but tat stupid page came up n the entry was erased. so ya. too lazy now. go sloganize ur name at http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi it's fun!

my thoughts {11:27 PM}

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

a few words to share in romanji :

Kawaii = Cute
Kakoii = Cool
Kokoro = Heart
Honto ne/Honto? = Really?
Mirai = Future
Uta = Song
Oshiete = Teach me
Shiawase = Happy
Kanashii = Sad

my thoughts {7:24 PM}

there was a girl about our age. but her life is not the same as ours. she lives in a world of hell. well not exactly. i'll leave it to u to determine as u read along. her name is rachel. she lives in a family of 4-dad mum bro her. rachel knew that her parents fight at times but she never thought of anything more would happen. not wat every gal would want. when rachel was young, she often saw her father hitting her mother. there was once where her father almost threw a chair at her mother. her father left to study for a higher degree when rach was about 10. he came back after. when rach was 11, her mother was sentenced to jail for 3weeks for abusing the maid. the gal understood well enough tat it was not entirely her mother's fault. her father played a part too. he was a health freak so he pressured rach's mother whenever things in the house weren't clean or so. since her brother arrived, her mother had stopped working, spending most of her time at home watching the kids. as her mother was a very hot tempered person, she often lost her temper easily as the maid would not follow her instructions always doing the unrequired. one day her mum lost her temper n pulled the maids hair from the back. upon seeing this, her dad did the same to rach's mum n pulled her into the master room. he strangled her. to vent her fustrations, her mother smashed the bedside lamp. this was not the first time rach's father abused her mother. he tried to strangle her a few times n her mother often walked out of the house, staying in her grandma's house. then rach's father would go there to beg n plead with rach's mum to return back home which her mother always did as she was a very soft hearted person. ever since rach's mum was sentenced to jail, the family had thunderstorms n lightning but never as bad as tat. recently, rach's father was sent to china to set up a branch of his office there returning only once in a long while. her father has often requested tat rach n her mum to go over there to have a holiday. however, the holiday turned out to be a total disaster. rach's mum had long suspected tat rach's father had a china mistress. and this was confirmed on the 3rd day of their trip. rach's father was showering when his phone rang. her mother answered the phone and it was a lady's voice. rach's father denied again n again tat he was not related to tat lady in anyhow but merely someone who wanted commission. rach's mum obviously did not believe. when rach's mum told rach about it, all rachel could do was to be shocked and cry. she never expected this to happen although she had long suspected her father having a mistress since they were in singapore. it carried on fot the next 2 days. when rachel's mum demanded tat her father to explain n break off with the lady, her father said tat he thinks they should separate for a while to cool down. which actually meant i'll c whether my mistress wants me or else i'll return to u. WAT KINDA MAN IS TAT???????? furious rach's mum went to rach's hotel room. but when she returned to her room, she heard rach's father talkin on the phone to that bitch. she banged n kicked the door demanding him to open up but he contiued talkin. he later denied tat he wasn't talkin to the bitch but listening to the tv news.
the next day, rachel's family was supposed to leave. but bcuz rach's mum wanted her father to leave with them the flight was changed to the nxt day. tat day was hell. her father promised to return in 1 hrs time but he only returned later than that. rach's mum kicked up a fuss about it n demanded her father to return immediately. they had a heated argument and rachel's mum tried to commit sucide from the 12th storey of the hotel. her father mangaed to stop her. rach's mum then smashed the cup in the room n tried slitting her wrists but was stopped again. life was hell. totally. rachel could live to face herself or rather her father. she rejected her father even more. she hated him. she dispised him. he was the world's lousiest husband and father anyone could have. she aupported her mum to divorce her father but her mother did not want to affect her brother who was still young and have a brighter future. rachel could never n never will forgive her father. she would always remember that day when her mother was strangled by her father, almost forced to commit sucide and how he dinied again n again. she would always remember that night where he slapped rach on the face leaving his 5 fingers. she will always remember. no matter how much money he provides for the family. no matter how much love he gives. nothing will be erased. the pain n cut in the hearts of her mum n her will not be removed with just a mere excuse tat he was facing stress from his job and he could not communicate with his wife. NOTHING!

my thoughts {6:12 PM}

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

firstly, i'd like to say a big...

chinese test was a wreck today. i could not remembr zha1 shi3, li4, ying3. i think tat's about it. and my compre was horrendous. i wrote only 2 lines for a 4 mark qs. like lao shi said to stef, ' u think i'll give u 4 marks for tat 2 lines?'. darn. i really couldn't think of anything else to write. how? die lor. sure flunk this test too. sob sob.

1. 070305 - B1's remedial. open to B3 also
2. 070305 - candice to cut hair at next in holland v.
3. 070305 - meetin zhi min to treat him his drink (tentative) *reminder* no bets with him on soccer nxt time. esp when there's man utd playing! hmpf.
4. 070305 - maths tuition 7-9
5. 080305 - physics tuition 6-8
6. 120305 - ACB carnival
7. 120305 - no tuition whee!
8. 120305 - class party @ peiling's house
9. 130305 - the little prince performance @ cheverons theatrette
10. 150305 - bro's birthday party!
11. 150305 - dental appt to remove braces n put retainers! bring $645
12. 170305 - maths tuition 7-9 pm
13. 190305 - Youth Orchestra Performance at Victoria Concert Hall be there by 715pm

my thoughts {5:50 PM}

Saturday, March 05, 2005

these few days have been pretty hectic and tiring. wed slept at 12. thurs 1. fri 2! crazy right? test n the stopid fund raising inkwell is driving me nuts. but luckily it's a sat..n inkwell's over. as in the fair. work's waiting for me to do n it's still not done. shall do it tmr.
ARGHHH!!!! yest sheryl's mum bought fish for our stall cuz we are gonna use them as the game. u pick a qs ans it right then u can fish for as many fishes as u can in one min. but then, as u noe word passes ard n i hv totally no idea how it went to the AVA. so now we cant use them. then unlucky poor lil me had to go get all the freakin stuff. ALL BY MYSELF!!! MYSELF K!!! i had no money n had to borrow from aunty karen $18. then luckily i had some china money on me so i had to go get it changed or else not enough money at all. still had to get hannah to pay for taxi fare. i go to beauty world (aunty karen was nice enough to gimme a ride there) n walk into grassland bookshop all flustered. then i asked for 5 styrofoam n then changed my mind n paid for 1. then i walk out. suddenly realising tat i needed other stuff there, i walk in again. msg sheryl bout prob. abi calls i ask her to wait in sch to help. i chose a few stationaries as prizes. prepare to pay but have not enough money so run everywhere to look for a money changer. n those 'helpful' stall owners din bother to tell me exactly where it is. so i search high n low walked to bt timah shoppin centre n to the building nxt to beauty world. then i decided crossing the road wld more sense. money changed went to get gulp form 7eleven. cross back to grassland to pay. i was pespiring like mad. so u can say i was sweating. (since guys sweat n gals pespire).walk out towards the hardware stall near the entrance. ask whether they have small S hooks. no. so i lug the plastic bag n styrofoam back to grassland. i get the uncle to get me 2 boxes of paper fasteners. pay n out.(the boss was pretty irritated n angry at me for being so fickle) mrs chen calls then i realise i bought the wrong thing. go in to hardware stall by picture hooks n round loop screw thingy n tells me to get lead weights. done but lady says no weights n to go to the aquarium shop in the building left of beauty world. lug the bags n styrofoam there to find out tat shop sont sell. so lug lug lug again to bt timah shoppin centre, uncle said so. found weights but cant decide whether to buy slabs or hooked ones. doneded. again lug to beauty world to take cab. msg sheryl (cant rmb for wat) n ask hannah to meet me at concourse cuz i was penniless. wind blows styrofoam flies catch phone also gone wit the wind. drop on the floor. ouch! got back to sch. started working. cut styrofoam fish wit pen-knife. actually can use styrofoam cutter. but then ar i forgot to but it. anyway if i did, i also cant get other certain stuff. heh. sheryl hannah me cut cut cut. yi cai come. teachers figure way to attach weight hook to nylon string. can but hook too diff to hook up the 'fish'. brain juices flow! late. teachers go. some netballers came to sch to train. acjc guys tennis/squash team leave. wierd tat they use our facilities when the have more! yi cai call parents to get styrofoam cutter. came back very fast. ms ho comes n watch. try to play. cant lar. hannah leaves yi cai parents come. cut cut cut. sheryl leaves. do do do until 940pm. eat dinner at kopitiam. home sweet home. search for worship lyrics to print.(n hell it got wet today while they were clearing up! gone case!) told u it's a tiring week. had chem test n ss test. then we had to combine wit b1 to do the stall. so there was a lot of diff ideas n opinions. i must admit tat i lost my temper once in a while beacuase things weren't goin smoothly. there were too many people trying to help out but then ren duo duo shi ban so i lost my temper. sorry to cyn vivian leemey and the rest whom i've offended in a way. sorry.
to make the situation during the fair worse, there was a bunch of sec 3s or mayb 2s flirting right in front of our stall. they were hitting the guys and screaming a whole lot and jumping up n down. prancing more like it. it lasted for more than an hour. so darn disgusting. i'm telling u it's not a very pleasing sight to the parents knowing that thier daughters are in mg but can be prone to these influences. so unsightly.
the fun part is the kids n the stall. the fishes were drawn superbly nicley by B1 n the decos were nicly done up. although there were arguments bout it on fri but nonetheless it was good. it was said to be a landmark for meeting because it was the most colourful n attractive amongst the rest i must say. DEFINITELY I MUST SAY! heh. we made a lot of money n john was so cute! i dun wanna be timed or else will have time out one1 in the end he spent 3 mins cathcing so many fishes n over 30 pts. haha. juz love him. saw him at walkcarthon too. ms ho tried to play to. ms ho's real nice. mrs yap also farnie sight. then we had to clear the water. but then so much so we used buckets n pail to clear makin quite a messy scene of water. then they finally could carry it to the edge of the steps n poured it down. it was quite a scene. looked like a waterfall. man-made waterfall as abi said. it made my shoes wet twice cuz it jus din register to me tat the water will spread so far. the screaming made the cat high guys look n laugh. it was a farnie scene. as candice did tell b4, cat high guys are indeed beta then ac guys. but thn tey dunno how to clear the satay sticks on the floor so mayb not much beta eh? haha. wateva. ok. i'm typing so slowly now. no more energy. i'm seriously exhuasted. i typed so much too. i need a long break. march hols are here!!! yay!

my thoughts {11:28 PM}

my thoughts {7:04 PM}

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit He prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. you are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. no branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. neither can you bear fruit unless u remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. if a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. if anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up and thrown into the fire and burned. if you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you. this is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yoursleves to be my disciples."

my thoughts {6:49 PM}